I am finding that people are treating me differently. Close friends, family, co-workers. Am I putting off a vibe that exudes stress and frustration? Cause you know what? I am neither stressed or frustrated! Besides a few moments like Panic Attack Monday (which I fear will be a weekly feature), I AM okay.
I notice that people treat me with kid gloves (or is it kit?) and sooth me as though I am about to explode. THIS frustrates me. I am not a bridezilla, really I'm not. I feel like I spend all my time defending myself to my friends: I am not picky, I am not freaking out, I am not going to bite your head off. I receive words of encouragement and pep-talks, like something bad is happening to me. Unless you all are plotting against me...nothing bad is happening, something wonderful is!
The fact of the matter is, yes, I do get stressed easier than oh, say, a year ago but I am taking things in my own two hands. I am eating well, getting enough sleep. I am working out, practicing yoga again and focusing on things other than October 11th. I have always been the glass is half empty kind of gal, but I am working - putting serious effort into seeing that glass as half full. So don't bring me down. I am trying to mindful of others and how I speak, act or treat them.
So please, do the same for me. Take off the gloves, stop tip-toeing and start treating me like a human being again.